Summer days pass on, and so does the days of my life. I am confused, but no hopeless, just looking for answers and/or solutions. I lie down on my bed looking out of my window towards the night sky. I get up and go to the window to stare at the lake at the back of my house. The moon is reflecting of the lake. It is chilly which is what I love about the night. Why all this trouble, no not insomnia nor paranoia. I stay awake through the simple thought of my dream. The dream to one day be in a successful visual kei band. Why, not for the money, but for the fame and the fans. I watch lives and it brings both pain and joy to me. I love watching them play, but at the same time, I envy them for living my dream no offense. The problem for me to start a visual kei band is that I live in America. How am I supposed to find people to play in my band, when there all overseas. This thought pains me to death and beyond. But it also brings me joy, because I can imagine my success. No I am not emo, I just need to get my thoughts down. If anyone wants to comment feel free, I take no offense to whatever comment you leave, but it would be nice for some advice or solutions. If there are any guitarists (both guitar and bass) and vocalists out there trying to make a visual kei band, please feel free to e-mail me your thoughts. vkkaizer12012@yahoo.com thanxxx for reading this journal entry.